Attempting a fresh start

I have never blogged before and I am not a writer but I feel the need to start getting things out and off my chest. My life is changing daily. I have just turned 25 and my marriage is ending which is a big enough transition by itself. I have moved back home to Florida to live with my parents while I get my life situated. Going from a 1100 sq ft apartment to a 12 x12 bedroom with 2 cats is not the most idealistic situation but for now it is working.

Luckily I do have a job, thank you to my wonderful company for pulling through and getting me a transfer several states away! Shout out to Helzberg Diamonds! Transfers are not as easy as they sound by the way it took over 2 months to get this done. I am very thankful that it worked out.

I am blessed to have a strong family support all around me.  My family is huge! I have 3 wonderful brothers. Even though they are younger than I am they will always be there as my "big" brothers since they tower over me. I am very blessed to have the parents I have. My dad is amazing and strong and always points me in the right direction without telling me what I need to do and has a great sense of humor. My mom is my best friend. My step dad is quiet but always has something great and wise to add and of course the goofy comments daily. I have a great extended family, all my grandparents, my aunt and uncles, my cousins. Thank you all for your amazing support in me trying to figure everything out and pushing me to do so.

So my goal here that I have and I am striving for. Since I had gotten married so young and did not go to college. Even though yes I could have gone while I was married I did not have the drive to do so. And yes that does make me very sad and I kick myself everyday for not going. But it is what it is and I am starting over. I have applied for grants to try and go to school and not have to pay for anything. haha. Hopefully this will work out as well. I am still waiting for an answer on this. I am hoping to start in January since I have already missed the cut off period to start in the fall. My oldest brother (who is still younger than I) will be getting out of the USMC and returning home in August and is scheduled to start school in January also. So this is a big push for me to go back. I have an idea of what I want to do with me life but passing the classes to do so will determine if it is possible.

I hope that I can keep this blog up and I hope it helps me keep on track of what I want to accomplish in my new life. I will also try and put in a quote when I blog to describe my feelings for the day. Whether it is good or bad information coming out I think this will be therapeutic for me. If no one ever reads this I will be ok with that. If people do read this...thank you. :-)

"I am strong because I know my weaknesses. I'm alive because I'm a fighter.I am wise because I've been foolish. I laugh because I've known sadness."